We’ve been together for 5 years and have had maybe two fights per year. I’ve had this persistent anxiety that she does not care for me as much as I do for her…certain little graces I afford her that she doesn’t return. I’m one of those sensitive types, and she isn’t. When I’ve asked her before if she loves me she says things like, “I’m here, aren’t I?”
Today - hours after she uncharacteristically yelled at me over a misunderstood word, I told her, “I think we’re done.” She looked at me blankly for a moment, said “okay”, and went to smoke a cigarette outside. I was taken aback by the lack of any reaction, but she said I had “made up my mind already” when I inquired about it.
She packed a backpack and quickly left for ‘I-don’t-know-where’. I’ve been sitting here for 4 hours Googling my anxieties and getting intoxicated. I don’t even know if I did the right thing anymore. I love this woman; we are best friends and both faithful. Am I being unreasonably insecure?